Well I got the letter, and it was a bad one. When the letter came, I read it, handed it to my supervisor, and repacked my bag. I stopped packing though. I did not clean out my desk and clear off the walls. I have a mortgage, a husband, a daughter, a car payment... it would be selfish of me to walk out. SO I stayed all day. I'll probably be here tomorrow too. There's nothing I can do. I sent a reply back to the man in the administration building asking for some clarification, and he gave it to me, not very kindly, but he gave me the clarification. What's done is done, and there's nothing I can do except wait and see. Nothing has been finalized yet. I haven't been turned down for my reclassification yet. I've just been told that the Director doesn't think I deserve it.
Meanwhile the Governor announced the 9C cuts today, and I'm worried that my father might be laid off from his job. Regional libraries got hit, and I heard the Bookmobiles are closing at the end of the year. I also read that the Governor is expecting about 1000 lay-offs statewide. It could be worse I guess. He is also hoping for furloughs. A 9 day furlough would be tough to swallow. I'm not sure we could absorb that, and I know tonight that the kid and the husband will want to go out because it's Thursday and by Thursday they are both feeling a little bit cabin feverish and tired of just going from work/school to home and back again. Meanwhile I'm worried about our jobs and everything else.
Maybe tomorrow I'll be in a better mood, but right now I'm just... defeated.